Well I worked  a whole week with my brothers company in construction last week. I did'nt post about it because I didn't want to jinx it. Makeing double what I was making doing day labor.  Got back in the swing of things, got my tools together got my edge back , which wasen't hard so to say for me.   2 reasons I am posting now are
   
        1: I need to find a dewalt charger and battery of either 12volt or 14.4 volt and I will have the money to pay for it on friday  after I get my check chashed, But It Is the last thing I need to be geared up for work again. Right now I am relying on my brothers charity to use one of his guns and It is putting a strain on both of us.  So ask around or look in your closets and garrages today for me, I would really appreaciate it. 

        2: I have the rest of this week off from my bros co. and instead of day labor today, I thing I will go down to the indian hospital and get some perscription meds for deperession today. It is an all day thing getting seen there and Now is the only time I may have to loose a day of work. 
     You see, I take a heavy dose of B Vitamins eack day and it seems to keep me on an even keel. But I have run out twice in two months and after 3 days I become manic and suicidal even right out of the blue. It happened monday and nearly cost me my job , and to tell the truth I don't care about working or doing anything right when it hits. All I can think about is all the people who left me and don't like me, and how hard it is climbing out of the Hole I put myself In, and I start thinking why bother.
   But I remember being happy and what I felt the day before about where my life is going and all those who yesterday I thought loved me and I know this state of mind isn't real. Or rather to say , It is'nt  the real me.  
     It has been a big choice to try the meds, I normally try to talk people out of relying on them to solve problems. But It just Feels right that I should go down there and see what becomes of the situation and weather or not if I have then I seems right to take them. I will have to play it by ear and go with the flow. 
     P.s. By the way, this is how early I have to be up to do the day labor every day. I would have to walk out the door right now If I want to  make it there on time and raise my chances of getting work for the day.   To all of you, Be Well , and if  you think of me, hope for my success, Rather than planning for my failer , I realy makes a big difference to me .    By the Way, A big thanx goes out to Darcy, every time I stop be I see how much love she has for me and I can Actually tell she wants me to succed ;) :0 ;)   
                        Mr. Marc Lewis I........... to becomming
                                                                                             I finnaly have a picture to scan in today , i'ts a small one but a good one of a peice of art with me standing in it making a spiral with a light and a shutter delay. Kyle took it of me and it is quite flattering to have a professional want to take pictures of you.     Be well

  

Thanx For all the Well wishes guys, It means alot to see people supporting me . I know I don't always comment back on things you guys take the time to write, but I do read them , and I do care. ;)  Hey cynthia...;)

"I know to you I may seem Not What I Ought to Be, But Thank God I Am NOT What I used to be. .... And Before You cast Thine Eyes in judgement against  Me, Remember , Neither You Nor I Are yet to become What We Are Going To BE." So Sayith The Lord.
               I am working again, and have been all week . I am glad to have turned things around and with each passing day Life becomes more easy .   Love to alll.............Marc

Well I just signed up for day labor to earn some quick cash for next weeks food and gas. I almost got sent strate out to work a half shift tiil 8:00 tonight, she already called her guys and they opted to show up so , No go. Damm I was excited . thought I was going to make some money tonight. Must be there @ 5:00 am tommorow morn.  Mom and Ralf said I can stay the weekend If was doing day labor so I guess it all works out , and there is food here too. So... except for fun or socializing I have it covered for now. OF Corse I will be making a trip into chandler tonight to get my tool with me for work .    YAaa Work....! ;)   Normally This would sound of Maddness..... bUT CONSIDERING mY LIFE AS OF LATE. This is a GOOD Thing.

Episode 3:   When Last we found our be-ragged Hero, He was leaving to go do a healing , prepared to ply his new trade. 
               Following up the next morning , the Good samaritan was driving the family in need to costco for some much needed food supplies.   Just when Our unsuspecting Hero was prepared to give himself  "A Much Needed Pat ON THE BACK" .....   TRAGEDY STRIKES !!  And Batman Flushes His Only Car Keys Down The TOILET .?   "Whoosh!!!".....  Our Hero Looked Perplexed..... He Had Never Done Anything Like This Before. .... InFACT, He was not EVEN Sure He Had Even Heard OF ANYONE Doing Something Like THIS Before..... "What To Do" Our Hero Chuckles..... " This is actually quite Funny" He thinks.  He Begins to laugh.... HA HA HA HA HA ...... But Those are MY ONLY Set OF KEYS  Ha ha h...... ;)  "Well You Have To Laugh At Times Like This"  Ha Ha Ha Ha....... "NOW To Go FISHING" He Declares!!!! 

I have been learning so much about me lately that IT SCARES me. The inner motivations and where my thoughts come from Amaze me.